As we stood at the top of Make Out Mountain, I knew finally kissing him would be inevitable. He specifically drove to that spot and held my had as we clambered up the dusty and uneven path to the top of the hill in the dark. We walked to the edge of the cliff and looked out over the entire city of Los Angeles. It was beautiful. It was probably the best view of the city I’d ever seen but it was cold and I stood there trying to not be so obvious with my shivering. I hoped he might make a move by putting his arm around me or making some sort of gesture to keep me warm. But that didn’t happen. We stood side by side looking out, making small talk and generally being awkward. He joked about it being a make out spot and I got bashful and giggly, and in return he laughed and virtually asked if I wanted to kiss. I didn’t know what to respond, so I didn’t. He stood there a bit longer as he joked about how he knew I wanted to kiss but still he didn’t make a move. If he could have see my face in the dark, he would have known I wanted to based on the bright shade of red it had turned. He then decided it would be an appropriate time to pee somewhere in a bush. So as he left I decided to sit down, continuing to look out over the city, thinking maybe by sitting down it would be easier to get close. All I could think about at that point while I was waiting for him to return, was if he tried to kiss me, he’d be touching me after just having touched his penis. Maybe I didn’t want to kiss him after all at that point.
When he returned, instead of joining me on the ground, he stood next to me for a few minutes. It was so annoying. It was another couple who trekked up the hill and approached from us behind who finally broke the awkward moment. They had blanket in hand, and were pretty committed to booting us out of our spot. So we headed back to the car and he dropped me back off at my hotel.
I guess neither of us really know what to expect. I mean, I’ve been talking to him for a few years on and off now. I first ran across his dating profile on a Catholic dating site, and when he didn’t “wink” back, I didn’t bother. A year or so later, I came across his Facebook profile by accident on a page we both followed, so I reached out again. It was then that we hit it off and began communicating first on the phone, then via Skype. We connected a lot on the chastity issue and talked extensively about it; sharing our thoughts on Catholic dating, sex, relationships, and the like. And he shared an awful lot about his relationship with his ex-girlfriend. Maybe too much. He was also discerning the priesthood, but ended up getting back with his ex for a while (I mention this in Being Single Isn’t So Bad). When he got back with the ex, I put him in the friend-zone and we would only connect platonically from time to time. After they broke up a second time, he began telling me how if I lived closer, he would want to marry me.
Earlier this year I did manage to meet up with him in person finally when I was on the west coast. Again, he talked about his ex a ton, which turned me off, but he much more attractive in person. And a devout Catholic. So after he left I was slightly disappointed we didn’t kiss to see if there was chemistry. Second time around, last week, I thought a kiss was inevitable. But it didn’t happen.
What I didn’t know that night we stood on top of that hidden hill overlooking L.A., was that it probably wasn’t going to be the last. 48 hours later my life dramatically turned upside down and I made a rash life decision. In a few months, I will be moving there. Not for the guy, but for my career coincidentally. It will be interesting to see how true to his word, and how “perfect” I really am once he gets to know me.
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